Recently I have been humming and singing this song 很久以后 by G.E.M, whether I’m idly doing something or in the shower or watering my plants. Without knowing the lyrics, I liked it the moment I heard this song. So I went google about the lyrics, only to realize perhaps the song is projecting what I’m feeling at the moment subconsciously. Here’s the song lyrics:-

也許是不甘心 也許是可惜
也許無法相信 突然身邊再也不是你
能給的都已經給你 能做的都用盡全力
也許遇見你是種幸運 分開卻是天意不是不能面對 又不是十八歲
愛過你的年歲 心裡至少真的不後悔
也許會不捨會落淚 但得不到也許才珍貴
也許再等等就有人會 比我們匹配很久很久很久以後
當我抱著別個他的時候
是否我就能夠 對你笑著揮手
好久不見的朋友 換個角色 對你問候誰還記得我們 曾多奮不顧身
失去你的人生 我像一棵樹被拔了根
如果只能依賴自己 我只能逼自己更獨立
雨再大過了總會天晴 不過時間而已很久很久很久以後
當我抱著別個他的時候
也許我就能夠 對你笑著揮手
也許會釋然分手 是個出口
很久很久很久以後
當你牽著別個她的時候
我們這個傷口 也許不再難受
好久不見的朋友 祝福你們 直到永久只是怕可能 以後愛別人 無法像愛你那麼深
但愛到了盡頭 哭有什麼用 也只能接受
愛情裡一切莫須有很久很久很久以後
時間會把回憶慢慢偷走
此刻承受的痛 會慢慢變得虛構
不過就換了一雙 執子之手
很久很久很久以後
你我都各有所愛的時候
我們這個傷口 再也不會難受
好久不見的朋友 如果再見 微笑點頭

It basically it was a song referring to past love and meeting someone new. There’s one part the song writer express that it felt like a tree uprooted from the ground when the ex left – felt so lost being taken away from comfort and doubt if he/she will ever love as deeply in the next love. The moment I understand the lyrics this morning, I actually cried to it. This is exactly how I felt at the moment.

As my previous post, I have begin to start opening myself up to meeting new people. So far, after the Mr.B ghosted, I was so angry and just wanted to test if I’m really that undesirable in the dating space, so I tried out Facebook dating. It is a simple widget on facebook where they could help up matches for you within certain variable such as basic things like religion, age, height and living place. Pretty much like Tinder, but you could filter out the awkwardness of meeting friends who’s already friend to you on Facebook. Imagine, your colleague found you on Tinder while swiping faces. Akward righttt!You could also make the setting to meet people whom you have no mutual friends at all, but I felt that could put you to meet shady or fake profiles (yes I have 1000+ friends on Facebook, unless you live on top of a tree), very likely I would have some mutual friend with you.

Things aside, I have been chatting quite abit with a few people. Initially, I really prefer meeting people from Kuantan. But seriously, Kuantan man all like uncles or ah boy. Or worst, my school friend older brother. At one point I have to tell this dude to stop texting me politely, by saying we can play badminton together next time, but I can only see you as a friend. He texted me back, but I did not reply back because didn’t want to lead him on by giving clear signal. At least I did better than Mr. B from LA date (ghosted without a sign). Regardless, how lah my matchmaker could find me a potential match. I could only imagine the challenge I’m putting Jessie through. Ok Jessie, I feel you now.

So far, good matches for me are NOT from Kuantan. How lah. Mel, are you seriously looking into another LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP? Kuantan guys, where the heck are you? Kap kap yu lok linggggggg!