LA Date #Mr. B

Hah! I didn’t know so fast, I will have to start giving review on my first date. Only last friday I got to know Mr. B and today already need to write a review about him. So Mr. B was the date whom Jessie introduced to me last week. He’s from KL and is currently working as a teacher. Well, in my opinion, the conversation went quite well, he speaks very good English and well mannered. Unfortunately, I couldn’t meet him through zoom, so I could only communicate to him through whatsapp. Unfortunately, he doesn’t use a real profile photo on his whatsapp, and he took too long to reply my whatsapp texts, curiousity got the better of me to do some further digging.

Turns out, from some little tweeny miney info he gave off, I went to do some searching on Facebook, and I found his profile! Ha! Gotcha. But really, he is not super charming, and I infer that he’s quite a quiet person. One thing I liked about him was that he posts alot of little classroom experience with his students. It’s funny and lighthearted to read. I think I might like him in person. Then because he took waaay tooo long to reply I even found out his horoscope is a Scorpio. Sorry Mr B, you gave me too much time to build my curiousity.

Don’t say I’m superstitious, but it does have some kernel of truth. Scorpio are mysterious, and if they don’t like you, they don’t waste time. Well, that was so true. Because on Sunday morning, after I replied his text, he just ghosted and stopped replying my message. Well, maybe he’s like “Girl, I got enough of you. Not my type, bye”. Har? I’m like I become nervous and kept waiting on the message, I wish he could just like push a button and tell me to stop waiting his message. Every other hour or so, I try checking my phone. I’m like “Gahhhhh I got nothing better to do is it?”

So come Monday, Jessie came to check in with me how did the date went. I told her that I didn’t know what I did wrong but this dude just stopped replying my message. Then she comforted me saying that “Oh, maybe you are from different state”. It got me thinking if she did check with the guy if he’s comfortable dating someone outstation? Like, I felt all my nervousness, and worries, comes to THIS? I didn’t paid to become like this. She promised she will find a better match, but I’m starting to feel a little disappointed about it.

What type of guy would date a girl from outstation when he could just dated ANYONE, ABUNDANT, PRETTY GIRLS, from KL (especially guys who plan to settle down)? Unless I’m like super chio, exotic out of the world, which I’m not. Even then, won’t the same problem came back and haunt me? Ok lah, even another guy willing to date this girl from a kampung, then I’m gonna end up in ANOTHER LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP is it? BTW, that was the main reason why my last relationship ended. The location differences, we never address it. Last last, dah propose also can cancel. You see, you see! Waste my time.

Maybe Mr. B did the right thing by being ungentlemanly, to have ghosted like that. Like, why waste time to date someone far far away. And maybe I was too serious and enthusiastic about it? For example, if you meet someone on a social setting, you think he’s not suitable you just leave the conversation, right? But the difference is, I didn’t see you leaving or talking with someone else, and kept on waiting, holding your drink. I rather you be frank. Like hey, I’m leaving because there’s another girl I’m interested to right now. Pain is better than wait (like an idiot).

I must have been too long away from this dating scene. And I felt never before my confidence went so low. I want to feel empowered. I know it has nothing to do with the other person, but the doubting and waiting has started to wear on me. I never looked at my phone so often that I noticed there’s a small crack near my camera. Or, I never scroll more than 30mins on facebook feed waiting for reply. This IS exhausting. I didn’t know being in the dating scene could affect me that much. I want to be out of the dating scene as soon as possible!