Day: December 8, 2020

Day 30: 1 month since breakup

My first monthiverysary after broke up with Ben. I have yet to think what excuse to tell someone when they asked me about him. I think the easiest explanation for people to comprehend my also very difficult to explain situation is that he had an affair.

But that wouldnt be fairto him, no? If I say, he realizes that he suddenly needs to stay in Singapore or prioritize his work over me, that seem to be a relevant and reliable person. Do I want to paint him in that color?

But if i say he has affair, dont that give people to pity me or I make such bad choices? Fuck, I fucking hate you because you leave me in such difficult position, you are definitely idiotest or the idiots.

Enough with your miscalculations in life. I hope you miscalculated more in life included the fact youare born.

Breakup Day 29: I fucking need to pee!

Mickey sleeps whenever I go

I remember when Mom first learnt about my break up with Ben, she starts to loosen abit about the rules to allow Mickey into my bedroom. I remember I felt less sad that night, when she was in the room. Looking at her sleeping soundly into abyss, was such a calming scene. 29 days down the road, now she’s almost a resident to my house.

Well, I guess it is true, when people say when you loose something, you gain another.

To encourage her good behavior, every morning, I will potty train her in the garden. We make sure she poo poo only in the sandy and not thr grassy or garage area. To our surprise, Ghalit, the other dog also followed Mickey good behavior. It is a good sign.

Besides, the fact that I sometimes have to wake up earlier to bring her to poo, I have to wake up extra earlier too. I start to understand her little behavior such ad when it is “I am bored, so I come to disturb you”, “I need to pee” and “I fucking need to pee!!”