What to expect after you're 30? Life is made of bits and pieces. Some bigger some smaller. Regardless, life goes on
Sephora Malaysia is on Black Friday Sale, that is open to all tiers of customer. Annnnnnd, the best part is most of the product that I wanted is AVAILABLE. Been eyeballing the products I wanted to try and HGs. I’m looking forward to receive and give my reviews on them.
I used to give myself conditions to happiness. So and so need to be with me or treat me in such a way only to be happy. I put expectations upon others on how they should react or behave. When they do not react in such a way i get disappointed and sad. For example, from my recent break up, i wished my friends took more initiative to comfort or at least check in with me. They didn’t. But, it wasn’t their fault, maybe they didn’t know how to react in such messy situation, or maybe they are busy with their lives, maybe they think is best to leave me alone; nevertheless, i felt disappointed and lonesome.
But then i realize i depend my happiness heavily on things i couldn’t control. I need to be responsible to how i feel and react. I can take charge on what I can do, what I can change, how I should behave and how I can react at this very moment. Perhaps when I’m happier again, things will go according to my way.
To measure my recovery process towards self betterment, I needed a baseline to measure my progress. So I went to gym and did an InBody assessment. After some discussions with my coach, I find out that I’m slightly overweight, have a body which resembles closely to a man, and have waay to many visceral fats to loose. Fuck 200% of fats is centered on my stomach. To measure my recovery process towards self betterment, I needed a baseline to measure my progress. So I went to gym and did an InBody assessment. After some discussions with my coach, I find out that I’m slightly overweight, have a body which resembles closely to a man, and have waay to many visceral fats to loose. Fuck 200% of fats is centered on my stomach.
My next weigh in should be right before Christmas.
Also, here’s also my baseline from Strava from my recent runs. After 1 week of running, I’m starting to feel lesser huff and puff after 10mins of running. But I’m still very far from my past performance. #havefaith
My goal is to be in my best shape before Chinese New Year 12th Feb 2021
Plans for the following weeks:-
Today is the 15th day since my fiancee left me. The man who asked for my heart to give him my forever, for he will guard it till the very last day. I felt betrayed and and sad for sure and I’m on my path to recovery. I would like to pen down my journey towards my better self. I don’t know exactly how many days it takes for a person to completely forgot someone imprinted so deeply in their life. But I believe it will certainly come to a day; where his face, his voice and name become so vague, that I barely remember. For that day to come, I want to live my life to the full potential, different from who I am today. I hope, in the process, I hope my recovery journey could inspire people in similar situation whether is a breakup or divorce or any disappointment in life to get their shit togather,
At present I am 31. And since we began dating 3 years ago, I have gained weight, stopped putting on make-up, dressed like a hobo and rarely take effort to socialize around. Ever since he called off wedding, I realize makeup trend has changed, some of my pretty clothes no longer fit and I barely have anyone to talked about my feelings, except for my mom. Sure, I did call my friends from college, but we don’t live in the same town. Also, due to the lockdown, I could not meet them in person, to have more intimate girls talk. Even without covid, I think there’s only a fixed number of time, I could look out for them. Ultimately, I am responsible of my own healing.
For the past 11 days, what I have done?
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